it is one of those days.
like most other days, wake up, dress, drive to college, attend, go back home, nap...etc
life's been kind to me lately, it seems. i am finally studying where i always wanted, the transfer is complete and i finally get a chance to live. i met lotsa new people, some of which seem really interesting, and have started to make some new friends. i lost some kgs-finally!-which is also awesome. i just got a few novels and started reading one of them, it seems fun. i feel grown up, responsible, smart, content, extremely gratefull, and happy.
this novel's about this 32 yr old man, who's always been a coward. lives simply, day by day. till he wakes up one day, realises he has a crappy meaningless job, that he's being reevaluated for, is stuck in a relationship that's been going nowhere-and while he's ok with that, his gf isn't. he snaps, and ends up throwing a photocopier out the window of his office. etc etc etc. the story goes on.
i dont know.
i am moving forward, life aint still for me. i'm still in college, which means no crappy job. but how about crappy college? oh, God, i so am not complaining, oh dear God, no. after being through hell, and being a person with alot of awareness about other countries and much worse places i could be, i am definately gratefull. but i am not glad about the way thisngs r here in egypt either. then again, i guess nobody is.
i dont want to go through this for the millionth time. why i think this country is so much third world-btw, which r the 2nd world?-and is so not "developing"!
yellow balloown, red balloon......
ok.
cont. later, i guess.
Monday, October 29, 2007
Monday, October 22, 2007
symptom 2
Symptom 2:
General willingness to cradle up on the couch and watch cartoons, specially tom&jerry and loony toons.
Irresistibility towards Garfield comics right before bed time, with a strong sense of relating to the orange, fat, lazy, fuzzy sucker! (all smiles:D)
General willingness to cradle up on the couch and watch cartoons, specially tom&jerry and loony toons.
Irresistibility towards Garfield comics right before bed time, with a strong sense of relating to the orange, fat, lazy, fuzzy sucker! (all smiles:D)
symptom 1
Emotional symptoms:
Extra energy with a strong craving for any exotic activity that is characteristic of either extreme winter, or extreme summer.
E.g. such a rush felt at the thought of diving into a cool pool on a sunny day, and/or a strong desire to go ice-skating wrapped up in warm clothing, with wool gloves and a scarf. or a snow-ball fight!!!(this coming from someone who’s never even seen snow!) - all smiles :D
Extra energy with a strong craving for any exotic activity that is characteristic of either extreme winter, or extreme summer.
E.g. such a rush felt at the thought of diving into a cool pool on a sunny day, and/or a strong desire to go ice-skating wrapped up in warm clothing, with wool gloves and a scarf. or a snow-ball fight!!!(this coming from someone who’s never even seen snow!) - all smiles :D
October : definition
October…
Definition: an ill-defined, some what transitory month, showing itself in a mixture of emotions. Considered a primary healing response for September blues, and an efficient mechanism by which the psyche starts to accommodate to the newly established conditions.
Definition: an ill-defined, some what transitory month, showing itself in a mixture of emotions. Considered a primary healing response for September blues, and an efficient mechanism by which the psyche starts to accommodate to the newly established conditions.
Wednesday, October 17, 2007
food qoute 4
Oscar Madison: You want... uh... brown sandwiches... or green sandwiches?
Murray: What's the green?
Oscar Madison: It's either very new cheese or very old meat.
Murray: I'll take the brown.
the old couple
Murray: What's the green?
Oscar Madison: It's either very new cheese or very old meat.
Murray: I'll take the brown.
the old couple
food quote 3
Homer: I sure could go for a hot dog right about now.
Marge: Homer! This is a funeral!
Vendor: HOT DOGS!
Homer: WOO HOO!
Marge: Do you just follow my husband around everywhere?
Vendor: Lady, he's putting my kids through college.
the simpsons
Marge: Homer! This is a funeral!
Vendor: HOT DOGS!
Homer: WOO HOO!
Marge: Do you just follow my husband around everywhere?
Vendor: Lady, he's putting my kids through college.
the simpsons
food quote 1
Spike: There's something wrong with this yogurt.
William: It's mayonnaise.
Spike: Oh.
notting hill.
P.S. i just started dieting
William: It's mayonnaise.
Spike: Oh.
notting hill.
P.S. i just started dieting
Tuesday, October 9, 2007
boriiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiing!
my life is getting extremely boring! come to think of it, i dont think i have a life really. not complaining about anything or anyone but myself. i am so sick of falling into routine, depending on other people for my hapiness, and feeling sorry for myself!
i just got my lisence and a car, and i just transferred to the uni i always wanted but i keep waiting for things to happen and to do things, it is just pathetic! i am waiting for eid to be over to start dieting & studying, and for the sections to begin so that i'd start meeting new people and making friends, for the first test to find out if i'm on track, for winter coz i love winter wear, for the right guy to come along- and god knows that doesnt seem to be happening anytime soon!
i havent gone out- excluding family gatherings- for at least six weeks now, i got a severe case of flu, and i spend my day fasting, watching tv, eating and sleeping- barely anything else! the routine is killing me! med school kinda does that to u, or mayb cairo, i am not sure.
i seriously need to do something that'l just make me feel great about myself, something entirely new and exhilerating. if anyone's readin this and has some sorta suggestions please let me know, i'm dispairing here...ciao tutti
i just got my lisence and a car, and i just transferred to the uni i always wanted but i keep waiting for things to happen and to do things, it is just pathetic! i am waiting for eid to be over to start dieting & studying, and for the sections to begin so that i'd start meeting new people and making friends, for the first test to find out if i'm on track, for winter coz i love winter wear, for the right guy to come along- and god knows that doesnt seem to be happening anytime soon!
i havent gone out- excluding family gatherings- for at least six weeks now, i got a severe case of flu, and i spend my day fasting, watching tv, eating and sleeping- barely anything else! the routine is killing me! med school kinda does that to u, or mayb cairo, i am not sure.
i seriously need to do something that'l just make me feel great about myself, something entirely new and exhilerating. if anyone's readin this and has some sorta suggestions please let me know, i'm dispairing here...ciao tutti
Monday, October 1, 2007
A happy place
looking up to the vast space...
laying back on the large soft chez lounge, the water of the swimming pool below sparkling with the soft lighting.
looking up to the endless sea of stars...
the garden's trees and bushes fill the air with the smell of the freshly cut rose bushes. there's a chill in the atmosphere, and a breeze.
the moon is a large beige round, a full...
he brings the lightweight mattress and places it on the floor. i lay there, in his arms, wrapped in the duvet he pulled off the bed.
dawn is not far from here... and the night has been just lovely.
laying back on the large soft chez lounge, the water of the swimming pool below sparkling with the soft lighting.
looking up to the endless sea of stars...
the garden's trees and bushes fill the air with the smell of the freshly cut rose bushes. there's a chill in the atmosphere, and a breeze.
the moon is a large beige round, a full...
he brings the lightweight mattress and places it on the floor. i lay there, in his arms, wrapped in the duvet he pulled off the bed.
dawn is not far from here... and the night has been just lovely.
insomniac
ARRGGGGGGGGGG!!! i've been in bed for 2 hours now! it sucks! i havent had this much trouble sleeping in 2 years or something. a couple of days ago i was in bed for 4 hours till i fell asleep!
it's putting me in a tough mood. ramadan and september! tough break. lets see...a horendous change in diet, weather, routine, put that together with a new university, living alone again, vacaton is over, and a severe case of boredom, laziness and obviously, insomnia!
i almost feel sorry for myself. except for the fact that i know things will be just fine in a few weeks. but until then, it's basically putting up with the crap that will only get worse, as studying material builds up in four subjects that i hardly know a thing about. given that this year is the toughest in med school and most people fall here, i'm guessing thats not a good thing.
i guess what bothers me most is how "not proactive" i'm being. i mean i'm supposed to go to uni and attend the lectures that started 2 weeks ago. but then again, everytime i go, i feel terrible! being completely alone in a place so full of college students that basically know each other and their way around. it isnt supposed to be like that, coz u see, i've been through 11 schools through out my 13 yrs of schooling, and 2 other universities already, but somehow, the knowledge that this is it; my final transition, i'm spending the next five yrs in this particular place. i dont know if i'm being extra carefull, or just sick of making new friends that most probably wont even last.
hmmm.. and i've been having this weird feeling everytime i walk on campus, i get this strange phobia like feeling; so aware of everyone around me, so conscious. i dont know...
well, lets just hope i get through this, and hopefully begin studying, coz if i postpone things further, it will turn into a disaster. bad performance can't imposibly help.
meanwhile, in a couple of weeks, i'll have to start dieting to lose the extra weight from summer and ramadan.
i guess someday i will go through this and laugh. till then, i need motivation:(
it's putting me in a tough mood. ramadan and september! tough break. lets see...a horendous change in diet, weather, routine, put that together with a new university, living alone again, vacaton is over, and a severe case of boredom, laziness and obviously, insomnia!
i almost feel sorry for myself. except for the fact that i know things will be just fine in a few weeks. but until then, it's basically putting up with the crap that will only get worse, as studying material builds up in four subjects that i hardly know a thing about. given that this year is the toughest in med school and most people fall here, i'm guessing thats not a good thing.
i guess what bothers me most is how "not proactive" i'm being. i mean i'm supposed to go to uni and attend the lectures that started 2 weeks ago. but then again, everytime i go, i feel terrible! being completely alone in a place so full of college students that basically know each other and their way around. it isnt supposed to be like that, coz u see, i've been through 11 schools through out my 13 yrs of schooling, and 2 other universities already, but somehow, the knowledge that this is it; my final transition, i'm spending the next five yrs in this particular place. i dont know if i'm being extra carefull, or just sick of making new friends that most probably wont even last.
hmmm.. and i've been having this weird feeling everytime i walk on campus, i get this strange phobia like feeling; so aware of everyone around me, so conscious. i dont know...
well, lets just hope i get through this, and hopefully begin studying, coz if i postpone things further, it will turn into a disaster. bad performance can't imposibly help.
meanwhile, in a couple of weeks, i'll have to start dieting to lose the extra weight from summer and ramadan.
i guess someday i will go through this and laugh. till then, i need motivation:(
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